People like my ovaries..they're party girls!: So...I have a fat baby

Thursday, October 15

So...I have a fat baby

So no matter what I eat good or bad my blood sugars have been terrible. I feel like crap! Once again I have to ask how people with diabetes can live like this. If my number is near 200 I feel like I drank 10 red bulls. It sucks! The dietician is giving me 2 more days then it's meds. Now, knowing what I know I am aware that insulin is going to be the only answer so why the fuck not just start me on it now?

I had the growth scan on my man yesterday and everyone was in shock. He's fat! He should weigh around 2 lbs right now and he weighs FOUR. So can we just stop messing around and start the meds? Duh! I also informed the high risk specialist that I will be having a c-section. While I've never had one of those before I am positive my vagina should not have to go through pushing out a 12 lb baby. Nooooo wayyyy! She-ra and I have discussed this and agree that she's not down for that.

I'm so tired of being pregnant. I'm depressed, I cry all the time, and I'm just over this. Every dr's visit is bad news. The kind that ends with...and your baby could die. Therefore I end up dreaming at night about his funeral, about him dying, etc. And Scott says to me, hopefully our next one.... Hold up! Our next one can come from the far off land of Vietnam or China. My. Vagina. Is. Closed.

To illustrate my point this is our guy 3.5 weeks ago:

(notice how he won't show us his face? Shy!)